Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Is There No One I Can Trust Anymore in This Family?

I don't give a damn to what you'll be thinking of me after you read the following, scram if you don't feel like getting a second opinion of what I am.

First of all, greetings to all that only take and do not give, less said about returning. You are God's perfect creations of what a selfish person should be. In times of need, all you do were to go around sourcing for help, monetary or psychological, and never thought about returning the favour. If you should think the world owes you something, I only hope that Man up there can make you realise that you owe everyone else not something, but lots.

Second, face up with the truth and live with it, and not living in a massive lie. Get over it, you're only making everyone around you feel worse. Think about that 2 kids you have; think about the 2 elderly that raised you up, still protecting you despite all the mess you're in; think about the siblings that ever tried so hard to aid you that they even have to resort to seeking help for you from their own kids; and please fucking show some respect for yourself.

Third. Need help? Look for the person directly! All you did was to try to get some one else whom you thought they could help, and if they can't, you very well know they'll go all out just to get you out of shit. In that case, you won't feel as much shame, as you deemed. No. It doesn't work out that way. It made you looks more like a wimp. A crying bastard/bitch that simply begs for help, but not putting up enough courage to even ask for the exact person to help you.

Finally, exercise responsibility. If you think you're deeply in need of aids, what about the others? Are we to give you what we have, all the time, and not leave anything for ourselves? Tell you what, we can be just as selfish, and let you die out there. If not for my dear cousins, I would have turned a deaf ear to my parent's persuasions.

All along I like-d you all, but why must you people messed up and made me despise every single one of you? I don't ask for you all to stop getting in trouble; I don't ask for wealth and the excellent lifestyles for my good old grandparents. All I ask for is to make them feel that you are really grown up enough to handle your matters, and not let them worry for you day and night, for they have given you all they ever could, but you are just not doing your part as children to allow them some peace and quiet even at their age.

Want to see your parents dead still worrying for you, not able to rest peacefully? Well, we might well have a case here. I certainly don't wish for that to happen to my beloved grandpa and grandma, for they're dear to me. They're getting old, the time will come sooner or later. If it were to come tomorrow, can they ever find peace in their long-lasting sleep? I fucking hate to doubt this.

My opinions will not change, and even if you try to make up for it, it's not going to change the way I look at you. Remember, I do not help you; I pity the cousins I have, I treasure my grandparents, those are the reasons.

Remember.

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